Moving On

Regardless of the tragedy that occurred in Colorado yesterday, my husband and I decided to go see the movie here in North Carolina. I don't want to live my life in fear. Yes, it is appealing to stay inside and shield my daughter from the evils of the world, but there is also so much opportunity and so many good things that need to be experienced in life. I don't want her to be afraid to live her life, even if I may be scared for her. This event makes me want to hold on so dearly to the ones I love and never take forgranted my time here with them because you never know when that time is up. Tragedies occur everyday, and while I'm not hugely religious, I do believe in fate and karma and that when it is your time, it is important that you feel in your heart that you spent your years well, living them to the fullest and not shying away because you're scared.

So that's where I am. We saw the movie. Nothing out of the ordinary happened, but the it was a bit somber for an opening night. The theatre was full but not packed and the atmosphere felt rather sad. No one laughed at the funny parts or clapped at the end. We saw the move. We left. The end. I felt like the entire theatre was holding their breathe waiting for something bad to happen, but trying to prove that they weren't scared even if they might have been a little. Every time I saw someone come in the theatre I braced myself a little. Which is crazy because that was an isolated event in Colorado. Why would I think that it would ever happen here? It's a 1 in 1 billion chance. But I'm assuming those in Colorado never even blinked an eye at the thought that something like that would ever happen to them...like I said before, something like that can happen anywhere, at anytime to anyone. That's just the state of our society. We just have to be cautious. Not afraid. And that's what I'm trying to be from this point forward...

Anyway...back to the point of my blog:

Hubs and I went to dinner last night before the movie. This really yummy local seafood place. It was GREAT...and I ate WAY too much.

I had:
Hushpuppies dipped in butter
Fried calamari dipped in marinara
Cajun Style Mahi Mahi and Shrimp Skewers with a Baked Potato and Sour Cream and Steamed Broccoli
Key Lime Pie

I ate half the order of hushpuppies and half the order of calamari (I split them with Hubs), then I ate half of my mahi mahi and shrimp, all of the inside of my baked potato with one little tub of sour cream, and all of my broccoli. I DID NOT share the keuy lime pie, 1) because Hubs hates it and 2) even if he did like it, it was too perfectly good to share (plus it wasn't that big)

I'll be eating the leftovers all day today. Hubs had the salmon and shrimp which he left for me to eat (he went on a fishing trip with his buddy for the weekend). So I have a ton of shrimp and half a salmon fillet and half of a mahi mahi fillet all to myself! Yippy! :)

All-in-all I probably ate 2500 calories in that one sitting, but I didn't eat lunch and I only had my protein pancakes for breakfast. So I cheated yesterday, but I don't eat like that everyday by any means and we were on a nice date.

The outfit I wore for my date was practically falling off me though! My jeans are just wayyyyy too loose these days. I buy all of my jeans at Old Navy because I'm a mom with no money and they still look and fit great. The ones I wore last night are called The Dreamer and they are a size 12. They are a mid-rise so the cover up my "baby pouch", and I love the style, but I think it's about time to go with a 10....which means, I'll wait until I lose a bit more weight and go with an 8. I'm not buying any clothes until at least August 11th. I need to buy an entirely new wardrobe for school. I don't own any work clothes or dress-up clothing because for the past two years I have been a student and a rehabilitation technician...meaning I wore yoga pants and t-shirts allllllll the time. So when I do go shopping I have to go all out and I want to make sure I'm at a good size so I don't waste all my money buying stuff that's going to be too big in a week....So here's to having some goals! I have about 3 weeks to drop another size. We shall see....