Haven't weighed myself, planning on doing so tomorrow....I think I ate okay the past few days...maybe?
Hubs and I went to an Indian restaurant last night for dinner and I had the Salmon Makhani. It was ridiculously good. I was in heaven...and I ate every last freakin' delicious bite...AND then, I dipped my garlic naan in the sauce, AND then I had these weird little balls of awesome for dessert. IT was awesome!
The downfall? Hubs and I were going to a concert and after driving the 35 minutes to venue, I realized that I forgot the tickets at home. I had signed up for printable tickets and had completely forgotten to print them before we left. So, we debated for a second. Would they be able to scan them from my phone? We decided that no, they probably couldn't, so we drove all the way home (35 minutes), printed the tickets out, and drove all the way back (35 minutes). We got there right in the middle of the first song of the main act. Not too shabby. I asked the lady at the front gate if she could have scanned my phone and the answer was....yes. Damnit. What a waste!
And of course, because of all that crap, Hubs and I were bitching at each other. He kept trying to tell me it was okay, but I was annoyed with myself so him telling me over and over that it was okay was just pissing me off anymore. And then he got mad that I was walking too fast...I wanted to get in the gates! Then when we got our spot on the lawn, he refused to talk to me. So I started crying. The concert was supposed to be my last fun event before classes started (they started today by the way), and he was just being the biggest jerk. He spent the weekend doing something fun-he drove to visit his best friend who lives 2.5 hours away and they went fishing and drank, etc. I stayed home with Bubs and missed all sorts of fun events with my classmates. Which is fine! I'm glad he got to go to his friends' house, but it would have been nice for him to respect that it was my turn to have fun and I wanted to have fun with him.
Anyway, so about 20 minutes into the concert he warmed up and things were fine, and then 20 minutes before the concert ended he kept asking me if I was ready to go. No, bitch, I am staying until the fucking end. What. The. Fuck?! He wanted to beat the traffic. So selfish. Oh and p.s. it rained on us.
So today he started out being nice to me, and then he decided randomly that he didn't want to do that anymore. So, he's been a jerk alllllll day long. On my first day of classes. He stayed home all day with Bubs and didn't do diddly squat. He didn't do the dishes or clean anything and he slept in while Bubs ran rampant all over the upstairs. He made himself breakfast AND lunch and left all the dishes for me to do when I got home. I asked him nicely if he could go to the grocery store, and he was a bit combative but took Bubs and went anyway. While he was gone I watched some video lectures and did the dishes and made dinner and when he got home with groceries he bitched at me to put them away. And then he didn't understand why I wanted to get away and go out with my classmates.
I don't know what's going on with him, but he's being a jerk. I think he's nervous that I'm going to leave him behind as I attend PT school. But if he's nervous that I'm going to distance myself from him, being a jerk isn't going to solve that. It only makes me want to put more distance between us. And for God's sake, it was my FIRST FUCKING DAY! Why did he have to act like this on my first day?
And of course, he thinks that it's me. It's all my fault. Blah blah. He doesn't care that he hurts my feelings, he just tells me I'm too sensitive and that I need to get over it. And every time I get upset about something, he blows it off by saying "Is it the end of the world?". Like I'm not allowed to be upset about anything because the world isn't crumbling down around me. Just because its not armageddon, doesn't mean I can't be upset about something, asshole.
Okay, I need to stop. I'm a little hurt and upset right now. I love my husband very much but I'm sad that he's doing this when I'm just getting started with school and that he doesn't take my feelings into account ever. It makes it hard to focus on the important things I need to get done for school when I'm dealing with his crap. And I'm tired.
So here's what I ate recently:
Sunday
B: Protein pancakes with almond butter and banana
L: Garlic Chicken with mozzarella, tomato, and red onion on whole wheat potato bread with garlic mayo and mustard
D: Samosa, Salmon Makhani, basmati rice, garlic naan
Ds: Balls of awesome (I have no idea what they were called)
At the concert I had the biggest beer I've ever seen. It was probably at least $15 by itself
Today
B: Protein pancakes with sugar free strawberry preserves and 1/3 less fat strawberry cream cheese
L: Mixed berry Nutrigrain bar, Garlic Chicken with mozzarella, tomato, and red onion on whole wheat potato bread with mayo and mustard, gala apple
D: 1 homemade pulled pork sandwich with coleslaw, mashed potatoes, and corn
I went out with my classmates and had one 12oz hard cider
I don't know my totals to be honest because my pulled pork recipe is from scratch (it's just pork shoulder and root beer in the crockpot on low all day...but don't tell anyone). But I didn't feel full or bloated all day so that's good.
Anyway, I have a big day tomorrow and I'm exhausted. Goodnight!
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